the sophmore album: merely a freshmen.

"i won't put myself in this situation again..."

famous last words.

i won't lie and say that i remember saying those eight exact words nearly a year ago. i probably shouldn't of put that phrase in quotations.

oh well.

never-the-less, forgetting about the possible errored wording and grammar folly, i made some comment to that affect about one year ago.

and guess what?

that's right, i did put myself in that situation again.

putting aside the fact that i just recently got saved(i'll explain later), i have struggled with going to class and doing the work i need to get done.

basically i've wasted two years of my life here at college...right?

that statement couldn't be any further from the truth.

now, to be logical and honest, i did lose alot of money. i failed and/or dropped alot of classes. so, after two years in college, i find myself still very much a freshmen. by credit hours, atleast.

but God has blessed me with so many awesome opportunities to minister to hundreds of people and be ministered to. i've been given so many great friends...wow, so many! i've been given endless chances to impact my friends' lives and i actually have, for the better.

so, what next?

i've come to another fork in the road. i can go home to ohio or stay here in missouri. at either place i'd just be working and just living life. here, i have a girlfriend and a christian foundation of friends, and in ohio i would most likely get mixed up with the wrong girls and the wrong friends, once again.

the logical choice is to stay in springfield, and i've decided to stay.

i'm using the services of addecco, a hiring agency, to find me a job. i'll know by friday if they've come up with anything.

then there's the issue of housing. stephanie told me to move in with her, of course. which, to ne honest, sounds great, but i really shouldn't for testimonies sake. patrick said i could move in with him and his roommate and live in their basement.

so, i'll be taking the fall semester off and we'll be out of school from late may until mid-january. which is much needed, as i can definitely forsee myself 'burning out'.

so i need a job and a place to crash...not like an accident, i mean crash as in like a place to dwell, or live...for a while. about eight months...ish.

stephanie and i are doing really well. we've argued quite a bit lately, but as jeff put it, i don't want to be in a relationship where there aren't any arguments.

um...i've had this saved as a draft for five days now, so i'm just going to post it incomplete and start a'new.

thank you for your understanding.



and for you, yeah you, quit whinning!